Bleed the Same by Mandisa


We all bleed the same
We’re more beautiful when we come together
We all bleed the same
So tell me why, tell me why we’re divided

Woke up today
Another headline, another innocent life is taken
In the name of hatred
So hard to take
And if we think that it’s all good
Then we’re mistaken
‘Cause my heart is breakin’

Are you left, are you right
Pointing fingers, taking sides
When are we gonna realize

We all bleed the same
We’re more beautiful when we come together
We all bleed the same
So tell me why, tell me why we’re divided
If we’re gonna fight, let’s fight for each other
If we’re gonna shout, let love be the cry
We all bleed the same
So tell me why, tell me why we’re divided

Tell me who are we
To judge someone by the kind of clothes they’re wearin’
Or the color of their skin
Are you black, are you white
Aren’t we all the same inside
Father, open our eyes to see

Only love can drive out all the darkness
What are we fightin’ for
We were made to carry one another
We were made for more

We all bleed the same
We’re more beautiful when we come together
We all bleed the same
So tell me why, tell me why we’re divided
If we’re gonna fight, let’s fight for each other
If we’re gonna shout, let love be the cry
We all bleed the same
Let’s stand united, let’s stand united

Music video by Mandisa performing Bleed The Same. (C) 2017 Sparrow Records


Argh, I’m 38!

38th today but hundreds of greetings. Ah, how my heart so full of it! But how did I celebrated it? Here’s how (^_^):

29th April 2019 —- After work straight to my room, checked my messages and replied to tons of greetings, ate the last portion of yesterday’s lunch/dinner then download the episode 3 of Season 8 of Game of Thrones while watching It’s Showtime in youtube. I am expecting a call from a job vacancy I sent my CV to. That’s 3 hrs passed and I decided to order grill, arrived after 30 minutes while I’ve started watching my downloaded episode. 29th is my “me” time.

30th April 2019 —- Rented a car. I was treated by my flatmate, Ms. Dalia, to a dinner. Roamed around Bahrain and end up watching kids swimming at Novotel then went back home.

1st May 2019 —- I treated Ms. Sheela for an authentic and sumptuous Arabic breakfast in Manama. Roamed around Manama with few shops opened because it’s Labor Day then went home. Cooked something for tonight’s Bible Study which we all enjoyed.

3rd May 2019 —- I invited few momshies to share with me a lunch which I’ll cook. I am craving for an Ilocano dishes.

It was a long celebration with my favorite people… heart is full! I thank Daddy GOD for this opportunity and satisfaction that as I aged I get to enjoy these things. Each year brings something different and something memorable. I thank Daddy GOD as well for HIS faithfulness that in 38 years of my existence HE never leaves me nor forsake me. I thank Daddy GOD for the relationships that overwhelms my heart.


Dinner out with Ms. Dalia 30.04.2019
Chicken Avocado Salad 30.04.2019
Breakfast with MS. Sheela 01.05.2019
Sumptuous Arabic Breakfast 01.05.2019
BR Ice Cream cake from Bible Study Group courtesy of Kuya Darius 01.05.2019
Ilocano Lunch with the momshies at WOLI 03.05.2019


“I have to be bigger than any of this!”

I first heard this line, “I have to be bigger than any of this!” I think in one of the testimony I browsed/ran into youtube.  I think the scenario was there’s this one lady who have suffered a lot in her whole life and cause her to resent, to distrust others and to hate herself later on.  But she learned about other people who have suffered more than her; struck by poverty, unable to go to school, early pregnancy which resulted to abortion or being a mother at an early age with no knowledge of whatsoever on how to raise a kid, etc., etc.  And from that moment on I started to use this phrase for my own also.

I felt betrayed, “I have to be bigger than that!”.
I suffered injustice, “I have to be bigger than that!”.
I lost a relative from cancer, “I have to be bigger than that!”.
A mother of the student is not happy about me and the smile I gave, “I have to be bigger than that!”
I was gossiped in the Church, “I have to be bigger than that!”
I am unfortunate to be living with a very dirty and lazy flat mate, “I have to be bigger than that!”
I am accused of spying for the Principal, “I have to be bigger than that!”
etc., etc.

Thank Daddy GOD that I ran into that youtube really. Because it enabled me to see the silver-linings to everything and I don’t need to self-pity and bath on my bitterness and disappointments. This is one of the ways why I so admire Daddy GOD’s wit and sense of humour because whenever I get disappointed to something or someone, I immediately ran to HIM and bring my complaints to HIM.

Well, I can’t say I am invincible already and can easily deal with disappointments and annoyances in life but those negativity are short live in me now and doesn’t stay in my system for too long. I AM GLAD! Otherwise, I can imagine always overthinking, spending time and effort for a senseless habit of bitterness and self-pity that I alone is suffering. I hate that feeling/emotions to be honest – it’s tedious!

So yeah…..”I have to be bigger than this!” ^_^


Character (McMillan Dictionary),
– the qualities” that make someone’s personality
– the qualities that make something clearly different from anything else
– a quality that makes something interesting or attractive

Example of Characters:
(positive) Loving, caring, respectful, obedient, generous, zealous, bold, God-fearing, etc.
(negative) Stingy, selfish, disrespectful, wicked, cunning, double-faced, double-minded, etc.

As I was having my bath today morning, this thought came to me in line to what I am doing at my current work. What does my strictness is teaching to students? What do I get from it? Or what do they get from it? Then this word “character” crept in. Discipline build character that is far more precious than any knowledge one can earn from academics. Yes you might me A+ from all your subjects but if you don’t have “good” character then it’s useless. Yes you may have all the money in the world, your family maybe the richest family on earth if you don’t exude “good” character it’s useless.

Character is being cultivated in a person’s own decision to be changed. That’s the thing that is very difficult to teach these days I think. Because if one decide to be an advocate of it some who aren’t will take it as an offense and you are the villain in the whole picture.

Well, I will continue to be it because that would be the legacy I would leave in that institution. I want to be the only receptionist, a Filipina, who are hated because of the strict vindicator of the rules and regulation in the school.

Goodness is about character – integrity, honesty, kindness, generosity, moral courage, and the like. More than anything else, it is about how we treat other people. Dennis Prager

Character is like a tree and reputation like a shadow. The shadow is what we think of it; the tree is the real thing. Abraham Lincoln

Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things. Philippians 4:8

Whoever walks in integrity walks securely, but he who makes his ways crooked will be found out. Proverbs 10:9

The Story of GRACE

The Story of Grace
by Andy Stanley, excerpted from The Grace of God


It’s what I crave most when my guilt is exposed. The very thing I’m hesitant to extend when I’m confronted with the guilt of others — especially when their guilt has robbed me of something I consider valuable.

Therein is the struggle, the struggle for grace. It’s this struggle that makes grace more story than doctrine. It’s this struggle that reminds us that grace is bigger than compassion or forgiveness. This struggle is the context for both. When we are on the receiving end, grace is refreshing. When it is required of us, it is often disturbing. But when correctly applied, it seems to solve just about everything. Contrary to what is sometimes taught, the opposite of grace is not law. God’s law is actually an extension of grace. The opposite of grace is simply the absence of grace.

To say that someone deserves grace is a contradiction in terms. You can no more deserve grace than you can plan your own surprise party. In the same way that planning voids the idea of surprise, so claiming to deserve voids the idea of grace. You can ask for it. You can plead for it. But the minute you think you deserve it, the ‘it” you think you deserve is no longer grace. It is something you have earned.

But grace can’t be earned.

To earn something is to find an equivalent. There is no equivalent where grace is concerned. Grace is birthed from hopeless inequity. Grace is the offer of exactly what we do not deserve. Thus, it cannot be recognized or received until we are aware of precisely how un-deserving we really are. It is the knowledge of what we do not deserve that allows us to receive grace for what it is. Unmerited. Unearned. Undeserved. For that reason, grace can only be experienced by those who acknowledge they are undeserving.

From the beginning, the church has had an uneasy relationship with grace. Yet history has shown that the church and Christianity in general fare best when characterized by grace. The church is most appealing when the message of grace is most apparent. Yet grace is often an early casualty in the world of organized religion. The gravitational pull is always toward graceless religion. Instead of defining itself in terms of what it stands for, the church often takes the less imaginative and easier path of defining itself in terms of what it is against.

The odd thing is that when you read the New Testament, the only thing Jesus stood against consistently was graceless religion.

The only group He attacked relentlessly was graceless religious leaders. So we should not be surprised when we get to the end of the Gospels and discover that the people who crucified Him were those who claimed to know God but knew little of grace. In doing so, they confirmed everything He said about them.

As we are about to discover, grace is not a New Testament idea. Grace didn’t begin with Jesus. But it was certainly personified by Him. John tells us that He was “full of grace and truth” (John 1:14; emphasis added). Not the balance between, but the embodiment of. John speaks of “the fullness of his grace” (John 1:16), the idea being that in Jesus we get as clear and as close a look as we will ever get of what grace looks like in an otherwise graceless world.

In Jesus there was no conflict between grace and truth. It is that artificial conflict that throws so much of Christianity into disarray. It is our misunderstanding of grace, as modeled and taught by Jesus, that leaves us feeling as if grace allows people to “get by” with things.

But grace doesn’t dumb down sin to make it more palatable. Grace doesn’t have to.

Grace acknowledges the full implication of sin and yet does not condemn.

Grace is understood best within the context of relationship. After all, it is only within the mystery and complexity of relationships that grace is experienced. It is a story that begins in the beginning. It is a story that traces its way through every book of the Old and New Testaments.

The story of grace includes a broad range of characters — rich, poor, powerful, and powerless. For all of them, it is God’s grace that tips the scale in their favor. In some ways these stories are our stories. For like the individuals who populate the pages of Scripture, we, too, need grace.

But not just any grace. The grace of God.

Excerpted with permission from The Grace of God by Andy Stanley, copyright Andy Stanley.

********Am sharing it because it is so nice not to!*********

Things I am Grateful for in 2018

I am grateful for my Abba Father, Who have loved me and continuously loving me unconditionally.  For taking care of me especially when I have nothing in my pocket or in my plate.  For providing me even if I don’t deserve it because I am ungrateful.  For being my constant friend especially when I needed one the most.  For the work I have now (It’s a whirlwind really since September 2017).  For Joseph who is throwing himself and giving his whole life to me (I have never felt from anyone before).  For Michelle, for letting me crash in her condo for almost 3 months.  For Mareng Emy and family.  For Tita Babes.  For Enna and Family.  For Villanueva Family.  For the lessons learned that helped me grow as a person.  For allowing me to stand up alone and showing me that all will and can disappoint except HIM.  For the heartaches that caused me to become stronger and learning to trust more the One Who is capable of knitting broken hearts together.  For the rude and disrespectful people I met along in this so-called journey of LIFE – it helped me realize that there is a lot of goodness in me.  For the relatives who worship and idol material things and money – it helped me see how blessed I am hundred fold.  For the prayer requests that was answered this year:

  • family relationship restored (with Nanay and Lola)
  • job offer to Bahrain
  • lovelife

And as for 2019, I am and will always be expectant (for more…).  Looking forward for more adventures with Abba Father and answered prayers (will be writing them soon!).  But my utmost desire for this coming year is for GOD’s.  I want to be a woman after His own heart…….less or NOT MAN’s STANDARD!!!!

Thy Will <3

“Thy Will” – Hillary Scott

I’m so confused
I know I heard You loud and clear
So, I followed through
Somehow I ended up here
I don’t wanna think
I may never understand
That my broken heart is a part of Your plan
When I try to pray
All I’ve got is hurt and these four words

Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done

I know You’re good
But this don’t feel good right now
And I know you think
Of things I could never think about
It’s hard to count it all joy
Distracted by the noise
Just trying to make sense
Of all Your promises
Sometimes I gonna stop
Remember that You’re God
And I am not

Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Like a child on my knees all that come to me is
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will

I know You see me
I know You hear me, Lord
Your plans are for me
Goodness You have in store
I know You hear me
I know You see me, Lord
Your plans are for me
Good news You have in store

So, thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Like a child on my all that come to me is
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
I know You see me
I know You hear me, Lord