“Ikaw na lang ang umunawa”

Unawain mo na lang.  Intindihin mo na lang.

What does this phrase really mean? Why is it that it’s always being thrown at me?

When we were kids, my mother and grandmother always throw at me this phrase whenever/after me and my siblings get into the fight or we have misunderstandings. “Ikaw ang mas matanda, ikaw ang umunawa”

When I get into misunderstandings with my older cousins or just a normal conversations that fell into argument. “Ikaw ang nakapag-aral, ikaw ang umintindi at umunawa.”

When I get into discussions with educated/learned acquaintances, classmates or friends or someone special. “Hindi ka nila kilala, ikaw na lang umunawa. Masyado ka kasing mataas at malalim.”

When everything is by the book — don’t be like this and like that, out of “pakikisama” — and still you can hear it thrown at you. “Ikaw na lang ang umunawa.”

Tonight, as I was overthinking about this phrase, I asked myself, “Kailan kaya dadating yung ako naman ang uunawain?” “Kailan kaya dadating yung time na hindi na ako mag-e-explain?” “Nakakapagod ha?!”

In my life, I have been spat at, called names that no one can stomach, threatened to be killed, blamed to be the caused of someone’s misery, too perfectionist, too difficult to deal with (this one I admit because I am hormonal and “tumatandang dalaga na!”) and many more.  And of it all, I am the one to “unawa or intindi” all of them.

Not that I have a problem understanding or something but it made me think…..”I must be a very very really really horrible person?!” and I lack understanding and consideration. I can be a Guinness Book of Records worthy as “The Most Misunderstood Person Alive”! Not a very prestigious title is it?

It also made me think, why can’t I just die now so the people around me especially my love ones could suffer no more. So much of #PURPOSE and #beingsaltandlight when I don’t feel I have one and am being one. I very much wants to impress GOD everyday but when I get into this circumstance, I beat myself so much of “I am a bad person!” and “here I am again!”

So yeah…….what does “Ikaw na lang ang umunawa” phrase means? Is it applicable only for/to me?

#thankGODforeverything #IAmMyBelovedsandHEisMine


A scout for a job in the Philippines continues (part 2)…..

So guess what? I was able to get a job already.  It’s in one of the BEST place I like on earth….El Nido.  The job offer was Operations Liaison Officer to a 3-star Hotel in the town. The job is on a Supervisory / Managerial position.  Hence, one month after, I am still doing Front Desk-ing! It’s not my desired job or work but GOD’s voice is the major factor in considering this job. To scout means “to explore”. Exploring connotes many different things or places or likes or hobbies until you get what makes you happy or satisfied. So as I scouted, I have considered a lot of opportunities and job openings. And then, I asked GOD to give me a signal where HE’ll lead me. I have a lot of possible and promising job offers but I asked GOD that whichever company would give me a favorable contract then that I choose. Lo and behold, an offer from this hotel arrived. I said whatever Your plans LORD or purpose, so be it!

My first week with this job is really tough.
First, to be working with all Pinoys that’s first for me. Observing how are they with regards to habits and norms. Very challenging indeed.
Second, you can’t ask anything with them especially if they are teaching you what they just knew. They don’t appreciate it if you are inquisitive. They want you to just look at how they work and just be satisfied with it.
Third, a company with no system and standard?!?!?!
Fourth, in 3 working days with this job, I was being prejudged, stabbed at the back and called names I can’t imagine.
Fifth, staff accommodation (no comment!).
Sixth, self-entitled customers who think own you already or they are the MOST important creation in the whole wide world.

Very humbling indeed. BUT, GOD taught me and made me realized the lesson here. I have this personality which I get too emotional when being told of something. GOD really dealt with me about this. And I praise GOD for everything! What happens next week? To be continued…….^_____^

Godly friends are forever

(Merriam Webster Dictionary)

  • one attached to another by affection or esteem.
  • one that is not hostile.
  • one that is of the same nation, party, or group.
  • one that favors or promotes something (such as a charity).
  • a favored companion.
  • a Quaker.

(Oxford Dictionary)

  • A person with whom one has a bond of mutual affection, typically one exclusive of sexual or family relations.
  • A person who supports a cause, organization, or country by giving financial or other help.
  • A person who is not an enemy or opponent; an ally.
  • A Quaker.

(Cambridge Dictionary)

  • a person you know well and like a lot, but who is usually not a member of your family.
  • A person or organization that is a friend to/of a group or organization helps and supports it.

From the Bible:
Proverbs 12:26 (NLT), “The godly give good advice to their friends; the wicked lead them astray.”

Proverbs 17:17 (NLT), “A friend is always loyal, and a brother is born to help in time of need.”

Proverbs 20:6 (NLT), “Many will say they are loyal friends, but who can find one who is truly reliable?”

Proverbs 27:5-6 (NLT), “An open rebuke is better than hidden love! Wounds from a sincere friend are better than many kisses from an enemy.”

Proverbs 27:17 (NLT), “As iron sharpens iron, so a friend sharpens a friend.”

Ecclesiastes 4:9–12 (NLT), “Two people are better off than one, for they can help each other succeed. If one person falls, the other can reach out and help. But someone who falls alone is in real trouble. Likewise, two people lying close together can keep each other warm. But how can one be warm alone? A person standing alone can be attacked and defeated, but two can stand back-to-back and conquer. Three are even better, for a triple-braided cord is not easily broken.”

John 15:13–15 (NLT), “There is no greater love than to lay down one’s life for one’s friends. You are my friends if you do what I command. I no longer call you slaves, because a master doesn’t confide in his slaves. Now you are my friends, since I have told you everything the Father told me.”

And many more…….

Examples of Good Friends in the Bible:

David and Jonathan (1 Samuel 18:1-3, 20:17, 42; 2 Samuel 1:26)
King David and Abiathar (1 Samuel 22:23)
David and Nahash (2 Samuel 10:2)
David and Hushai (2 Samuel 15:32–37)
Elijah and Elisha (2 Kings 2:2)
Job’s Friends (Job 2:11)
Ruth and Naomi (Ruth 1:16-17)
Paul’s Ministry Friends (Romans 16:3-5; 2 Corinthians 2:12-13; Philippians 2:25; Colossians 4:7, 14; 2 Timothy 1:2-4; 1 Philemon)

The greatest gift of life is friendship, and I have received it. – Hubert H. Humphrey

Love is friendship that has caught fire. It is quiet understanding, mutual confidence, sharing and forgiving. It is loyalty through good and bad times. It settles for less than perfection and makes allowances for human weaknesses. – Ann Landers

A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out. – Walter Winchell

One loyal friend is worth ten thousand relatives. – Euripides

Of all possessions a friend is the most precious. – Herodotus

A friend is one who knows you and loves you just the same. – Elbert Hubbard

This blog was inspired by the recent event in my life which involves two friends – one went to another country and another friend I haven’t heard voice of for a long time. And because this is my blog so I’ll use my own adage about “friends” or “friendships” – “godly friends are forever”!

This is so true to me since I am very picky and choosy with friends that I want to be with in life. My favorite definition of a friend is “the favored companion”. Yes, I believe that that definition is correct because there are those people whom you got acquaintance with – first instinct – that doesn’t tingle to your senses. You didn’t like them at first; they annoy you because they kept you wait for more than an hour. They test your limit everytime they kept telling you the same sentiments over and over again and even if you already told them your opinion about it, they still didn’t hear you.

But then eventually you liked them because they are always there and for some reasons you kept them, you go out with them, chat with them and know them even if they have personalities that are totally different from yours. You started to share “you” to them even if you don’t know if it matter to them or they care. By the way, “they” means “few” like you can count on your fingers kind. And “they” means “old and young” alike.

“Godly friends are forever” can be “me” or “my godly friends”. “Me” because I am rare piece of stone (naks….hahaha!). As I’ve said, I am picky and choosy when it comes to people that I welcomed and kept with in my life. Because of the many betrayals I’ve experienced, I became protective of myself. I’d rather be heart broken by a lover than to be heartbroken by a friend. For me, I can bear losing a boyfriend than losing a friend.

Within the course of time, i can count in my fingers those whom I chose to stay in my life (even if they don’t want me in there’s) because I know these friends are the ones who have heart for GOD. Also, I have guaranteed that these friends have kept me in their endocardium for life and life after that. And, because I know that they love GOD too much not to love me and keep me in theirs too. The friendship that I offer is unconditional, no boundaries, no limits and no amount of disappointment can destroy it or let it go to waste. I am no special nor jewel but I can say that I don’t lie. I am also a faithful friend and a sincere confidante.

But yeah, for the sake of the “benefit of the doubt”, I’ll ask these friends who “Claire” really to them and why they keep her in their life as well. Or if it was you my “favored companions”, please leave a message below! ^_^

For “my godly friends” because simply they are godly…^___^.

No distance can ever separate me to them because I’ll keep knocking on their Viber, WhatsApp, Messenger, or whatever app there are available. No year of silences can ever shut me from just saying “hi” and “hello” to them. That’s the thing noh?! With godly friends or close friends even how long haven’t you talked or hear from each other when you do it feels like it’s just yesterday. Things to talked about never run out. It’s a bottomless sharing. And what I like about godly friends are it’s always GOD – the Hero, the icing on the cake, the appetizer, the main menu and the dessert of our sharing. There are cries at the same laugh in between. Haaaay….the perks of having godly friends by your side. So yeah, Airahtot, if you are reading this, you are loved and will forever be in my heart. HE Who began a good work in you will perfect it. I believe HE has done what I’ve asked HIM for you already. To Michie, friendship, I am just here (lalim ng hugot noh?!). Love you too more!! To Glenda, Oliver, Tita Babes, Christie Ann, Tita Aida, MOMSHIES……you are all in my prayers always! I am your silent intercessor. Silent coz I whisper to GOD everytime I think about you. All respect and honor and love to you all! ❤ ❤ ❤

A scout for a job in the Philippines continues….

So the sentiments of looking for a job continues. A month of sending CVs and a week of unending job interviews. And for those who’ll go through the same later on (you never know…..^_^), here are some of the questions often asked on the interviews:

  1. Tell me about yourself.
  2. Tell me about your current job responsibilities.
  3. (If you’ve worked abroad for a long time) Why did you leave your job in (name of the Country)? Or why did you decided to come back to Philippines? Or why did you leave (name of the company)?.
  4. (Still if you’ve worked abroad) I am pretty sure that your salary is high back there in (name of the Country) and we offer this much (figure in Peso) only, how would you take it?
  5. Why us (name of the company you are applying to)?
  6. (If you just came from being OFW) You’ve arrived here (date of arrival) and you’re like (number of months) here, what have you been doing for the past (number of months)?
  7. What are your strengths and weaknesses?
  8. Have you dealt with a difficult customer already? How did you handle it?
  9. How do you see yourself 3 years from now? 5 years from now?
  10. Are you willing to work in shift? How about overtime without pay?
  11. How do you manage stress at work?
  12. Personal question, you’re already 36, why are you still single?

The last question though! hahaha….

Different job interviews, different companies, different ways of answering also. The most memorable I can remember was the job interview I had not so long ago (the job interview I had yesterday, 01.02.2018). It was a paneled interview – 2 interviewers, 6 aspirants. The interviewers will throw questions at us and they’ll asked us to answer it end to end or left to right and vice versa. The funny thing was all of us were all clever, smart and intelligent (naks!) so actually all got a flying colors answering those questions. Why? Given the qualities just mentioned, the end (which is normally right to left or left to right….I am on the left end of the interviewers) aspirants will answer excellently which will be copied by the aspirant next to him/her but with a little bit of enhancement or articulation but totally the same thought and so on and so forth. The last to answer have to be really really clever to unmatched how brilliant the idea or the answer of the aspirant after him/her. If only the interviewers are writer, they can have a whole book of “How to answer the questions in your Paneled Job Interviews?’ written just by recording our answers.

What’s tough though is that for all these brilliant, clever and smart aspirants and answers, there be only one who will be chosen.

Evaluation: All that you have to do just to land on your “THE ONE” job or “THE ONE” company or “THE ONE” offer. There is this job hiring which you have to spent a real deal of penny (fare back and forth plus one night lodge for the job interview. Sacrifice lunch and chose starvation just to be on-time for the job interview. And with these experiences for job-hunting in the Philippines, I just can’t know if you can’t get a job!!!

True to that………….(to be continued)!

A scout for a job in the Philippines

4 months in the Philippines with no job and no income! I think those who have been abroad for more than a decade, with no savings back home and no clue can relate to this blog.

Before 2017 ends, I have high hopes that I’ll go back to Bahrain since one of my applications there responded and gave me an almost 80% assurance that they’ll take me. I honestly conditioned myself that yeah I’ll go back. However, upon almost always following up to them I received their answer which says, “Sorry we decided to forego the hiring and let the situation be as is. You may proceed with other applications you may have and we wish you goodluck!” I’ll be hypocrite if I’ll say I wasn’t affected by this news. I’ll be lying if I’ll say I was okay with that. Nope! Of course, not! I spent whole day crying about it and struggled with myself where did I got it wrong! The face and the guts to show to friends whom I shared that I’ll be leaving Philippines again. But then, good thing, our Church has an ongoing “Prayer and Fasting”. This helped me power-up and accept the whole fact and move on and continue living as alive human beings do and as a mature Daughter of GOD do!

So here I am, sending CVs provincewide and nationwide – may the first company to employ me wins! Overseas I have all the idea how the labor market or job hiring works but here in my home country – zero! I am not adept how the hiring process work so when asked for an interview or preliminary exams, I have lots of questions and observations. Like for example,

1. Most of the applications are done online so meaning your resumés/CVs/Biodatas were already received and checked. However, when they’ve checked it and you are shortlisted and invited for an interview, they’ll still asked you to bring resumés/CVs/Biodata with you.

2. There are hundreds and thousands

applicants for 3 positions.

3. They’ll asked you to wear business attire or at least be in your best attire but when you arrived, the personnel/coordinator/HR are not in their best attire!!!

4. When you got hired, you’ll have to provide for NBI Clearance, SSS, GSIS, PAG-IBIG, etc. – authenticated by PSA (former NSO). Failure to comply for the requirements will cause you not to be hired anymore or sometimes they’ll wait until you finish your requirements.

5. You’ll have to wait for months before you know the result. And some establishments (I’ll not mention which – mmmm…..the government!) have this system which they employ relatives or close friends or the likes.

5. With all the procedures and hiring whatsoever mentioned above (all expense paid by the applicant by the way), you’ll still end up with very low salary. (Not that I am complaining! Beggars can’t be choosers! ^__^)

But nonetheless, go on. Don’t Stop! #kapitlang #thankGODforeverything

All glory still and will always belong to HIM – the Author and Finisher of MY Faith!

First CHRISTmas Celebration in my Hometown (and probably not the last)

I know it’s kinda late posting it but I just want to write it down.

Since I went abroad on 2004, 13 years working to the country I called my second home, 2017’s CHRISTmas was celebrated for the first time in my hometown. How was it? Hmmmm…..

Back in Bahrain, CHRISTmas was normally celebrated with my spiritual family. We follow a program design solely to celebrate JESUS’ Birth and giving gifts and exchanging gifts to close friends and foooooood!!! It’s always being celebrated with so much joy because the real reason for this season was given an appreciation and remembered that without HIM being human, being born, we’ll not enjoy the grace, mercy, salvation and excitement that we, as believer, have been exploiting and enjoying so to say. Plus the weather is really really nice – cold and fashionable.

Back here in my hometown, 2017’s CHRISTmas was like: I often hear my mother complains about not having food in the table to prepare with, no spirit of CHRISTmas because no Christmas Tree or Christmas decorations inside the house. And as the day itself is fast-approaching, the complains are getting noisier and louder. Here comes the day itself, viola! There are food prepared in the table, delicious and yummy food BUT no ones enjoying it. WHY? Because some are already sleeping because they can’t cope up staying late, some are still full from the sumptuous dinner and some are not present because they got an invitation from friends. I kept on explaining to my complainer that “handa” or “media noche” is NOT the thought or significance of CHRISTmas but it’s JESUS’ Birth. And I think this statement was just being said to the air that she can’t understand it.

And you know what happened next? The food that was prepared supposedly for media noche lasted for 3 days. Well in that case, we save a bit for lunch and dinner.

My assessment for the whole thing is that JESUS is THE Way, THE Truth and THE Life. He alone can satisfy us. HE totally gets it when there are no food during media noche or no gifts being given to your mom or nieces or godchildren. HE understands our situation that sometimes we have so much and nothing at all. HE still loves us so dearly. HE will still come for us to be saved and to have a relationship with HIM. Too bad that some kept numb on what HE offered us instead they still want to kept their tradition and what for them is nice. It’s sad as well that these people are your family and you also want them to experience HIS scandalous grace. Well, I still believe in the saying that “you and your household will be saved!”.

#kapitlang #keepyourfaith #patienceisavirtue

The Saving Love of GOD

The Saving Love of God

Our Daily Bread

Although we might think of Christmas as a time of “escapism”, the intention of the biblical narrative couldn’t be any more different. Jesus’ birth was not one of fantasy—He wasn’t born in a rich palace with midwives on hand to support Mary. If He had, what would it have said about God’s gift? That it’s only for the rich and powerful? Or only for those who are worthy in some way? The actual events and details carry a very different message.

A birth for everyone: Jesus’ birth plunges us into the real world. Imagine the anxiety of Mary and Joseph as they tried to find somewhere to deliver the baby, or the unclear future that lay before them as they fled to Egypt to escape Herod (Matt. 2:14). Jesus was born in the stark reality of poverty, uncertainty and weakness. As we are told by the apostle Paul: Christ “made Himself of no reputation… coming in the likeness of men” (Phil. 2:7 emphasis added). He wasn’t born in “the likeness of rich, powerful, self-sufficient people”; by His own choice, Jesus was born among livestock in the humblest of circumstances, and then placed in a feeding trough. We are told in the book of Hebrews that Jesus can fully “sympathise with our weakness” and He was “in all points tempted as we are, yet without sin” (4:15). It wasn’t just that Jesus looked like us; He became like us, suffering through hardships and trials, even from the day of His birth. He truly became one of us.

Jesus really is for everyone. He was born in a stable (or cave of some sort) crowded with animals. It wasn’t a high-profile, “private property” kind of place; there was no lock on the door to keep the world out. In fact, the first visitors to see the Baby in the manger were people of relative unimportance: shepherds (Luke 2:15–16). They didn’t stumble onto the scene, but were invited by “an angel of the Lord” (v.9). Jesus came that all would be able to find Him and know Him personally.

A rescue for everyone: Jesus was given two powerful names at His birth:

“You shall call His name JESUS, for He will save His people from their sins.” —Matthew 1:21 (emphasis added)

“The virgin shall be with child, and bear a Son, and they shall call His name Immanuel,” which is translated, “God with us.” —Matthew 1:23 (emphasis added)

The promise of these names should leave us in absolute awe. Jesus was born into a world not ready for Him or looking for Him, yet He came to “save His people” and be “God with us”. These are the names God instructed to be given to His Son. Their message doesn’t rely on our circumstances or how well we are doing; it’s His mission to save us and make us His again. Jesus’ names show His rescue can be for everyone because it depends only on Him.

A sacrifice for everyone: Jesus was called another name at the beginning of His public ministry; one which adds some crucial explanation to the Christmas Story: “The Lamb of God who takes away the sin of the world!” (John 1:29). Jesus wasn’t just born among livestock, He was born as “The Lamb”.

Lambs were very significant in Israel’s worship towards God. God’s law required lambs to be sacrificed as sin offerings (Lev. 4:32), guilt offerings (14:12) and other forms of offering. Yet the most important lamb sacrifice happened during the Exodus, when God freed the Israelites from their slavery in Egypt (Ex. 12). Every Israelite family was told to slaughter a lamb and put its blood on their doorposts. When God then visited Egypt in judgment that night, whenever He saw the blood on the doorposts, He passed over that house. He only brought death to the firstborn in the Egyptian houses, where this payment of blood had not been provided.

Jesus, “The Lamb of God”, is the fulfilment that the Exodus “Passover Lamb”, and all the other sacrificial lambs, pointed to. He wasn’t just born to teach and lead us; He was born to die. In a similar way to the Passover lambs (who died in place of the Israelite firstborn), Jesus paid for “the sin of the world” for us by dying in our place. He brought an end to the need for sacrifices, taking away “the sin of the world” for good.

Jesus didn’t die for innocent people who were just in the wrong place at the wrong time. And He didn’t die for His friends. Jesus died for His enemies—messed up, broken people who have no relationship with God and no way of making things right on their own. Now, anyone who puts their faith in Christ can enjoy a life and eternity of “God with us”.


This article is not mine. I liked it from OUR DAILY BREAD so i thought i’ll share.