Reboot / Restart

“Behold, I will do something new, Now it will spring forth;Will you not be aware of it? I will even make a roadway in the wilderness,Rivers in the desert.”

Isaiah 43:19 (NASB)

9 days in Palawan now but the feeling is still surreal, the whole thing haven’t sunk in yet. I am still wishing that I was just here for 1-month vacation and I’ll be back to my second home after 3 weeks.

I have a house but I can’t call it a home. Here I am sitting in a coffeeshop, figuring out what to do tomorrow or the next day. I always make myself occupied everyday to forget what’s really on my hand – being unemployed, just expectant with what tomorrow will bring. I hear GOD but there is this childlike in me that I refuse to hear. Often arguing with HIM and most of time requesting to HIM that HE return me back to the people I have learned to love and I call my family.

When the reality is slowly presenting itself everyday, the more I am hesitant to embrace it, refusing to accept it. I wish i wake up from this reality at the soonest and be in my dream. Skip all the process and be at peace in one place. I am in my Peniel, I can’t deny that fact. I know HE will win or HE won rather but still discussing the possibilities and what ifs.

Daddy GOD, I am sorry for feeling like these towards Your way. Give me a heart that is so submissive and just enjoy this phase. I am not worried nor anxious though, just wishful.

Your Daughter,


The Joy in a Sprout

I am currently living in Middle East, Bahrain specifically, wherein she only have 2 seasons – the super summer and winter. Summer is from late March to Early December and winter is from late December to early March. I like winter more than summer of course because of the many nice things that I benefit during this season:
– lower electricity consumption
– lower petrol (car) consumption
– you don’t get burn when you go outside
– people are not that smelly (hehehe…..)
– the air is fresher
– the plants are healthy and smiling

And the opposite of all of the above is summer which has the most months in every year. But it is during summer when i get to eat most nice fruits and some veggies that I like. So every other Saturday; me, Chrissy, Tita Aida and Tita Babes go to Manama Central Market coz there is where we can buy a fresh and cheaper produce.

At home I don’t throw away the seeds of fruits and vegetables that I cook and prepare. I dry them instead. After couple of weeks I will plant it to my mini garden at my terrace. Sometimes it’s kinda trial and error thing if these seeds will sprout and grow because it is really really hot in the summer in this part of the world. So when I see a sprout… joy!!!!

What can I learn from the sprout?  Why do I have joy within me?

  • GOD’s righteousness and faithfulness

Isaiah 61:11 (NASB), “For as the earth brings forth its sprouts,
And as a garden causes the things sown in it to spring up,
So the Lord God will cause righteousness and praise
To spring up before all the nations.

  • Hope

Job 14:7 (NASB), ““For there is hope for a tree,
When it is cut down, that it will sprout again,
And its shoots will not fail.

And in this side of the world which summer can be as hot as 50 degrees, it is impossible to have plants grow coz even the water use for watering is also hot.  That is why the moment that seed show up a promising grin/green, that is something!


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I have an encounter with one client yesterday, “and men….” I told myself. People who are allergic to people who do / making mistakes or afraid of making mistakes (in short….perfectionist??) are so unhappy people (I think!). They’re the ones who are close to 6 feet under the ground coz their enthusiasm is so little that their heart doesn’t have an exercise. I would assume as well that these kind of people are looking far far from their age because they only know one expression….poker face! There is a dog who look like that….what’s it called again? “bulldog”

Also, long exposure to these kind of people will make you one as well. It’s contagious…be careful!

“Contagious” —- I remember during my college days. I used to live in a boarding house, a room with 6 occupants. I was then a very “me, myself and I” person. Show off who I am. Don’t care if I make friends or not….kinda like “this is me, want me or hate me” person. So, if I am upset, I am upset! If I like you, I like you! If i don’t like you, I don’t like you! So here comes a test to this behaviour/attitude…..I have a clash with a boardmate. Didn’t talk for almost a month (just for a silly reason really?!). Then I think she had enough so she indirectly say to me (she is actually telling it to me but she is talking to the instant noodle that she is cooking), “I hate this behaviour, this is contagious! No wonder you don’t have friends!”

Wow….that changed me totally in dealing with people. I don’t want to be contagious in a bad way, it’s not a good asset isn’t it? So I broke my pride and talk to her the afternoon. Everything’s fine from then on and I am pretty sure that we’ll just laugh at this when we talk about it.

So yeah….for people who have such an attitude, I can only tell you my experience and what I’ve learned. It is still your choice. But isn’t it nice if you are being called contagious but in a good way? Contagious laugh. Contagious beauty. Etc. Etc.

Ciao….stay strong and happy y’all!!!

I’ve learned….

This is a compilation of the many lessons I’ve learned through life since I can remember! Sharing them as I’ve wrote them first (no date mentioned but in my calculation, year 2004!) Don’t judge! ;-P ^_^

I’ve learned that….
….when you find the best company, you’ll live with them forever.
….the true hapiness is found in the presence of the LORD.
….it is not easy to let go of a TRUE FRIEND.
….it is not enough that you have education, you also must have good relationship with people.
….you’ll still be dependent with your parents even after you graduated college.
….if you have fought to a certain person, it takes time to heal and forget the issue.
….love will conquer all even the biggest failure you’ve committed.
….the best way of forgetting your problems is by listening inspirational songs with Christian lyrics.
….Word of GOD fattens your spiritual worthiness.
….GOD is the BEST Friend you’ll ever find.
….in every happiness there is always loneliness.
….when you get even with someone, you’ll just letting that someone continue to hurt you.
….there are people who like you just because they want something from you.
….real people are hard to find.
….you’ll find true happiness when you’ve accepted JESUS in your life.
….it is relieving when you accomplished one of your plans.
….if it’s not GOD’s will, whatever it is you do, you’re not satisfied.
….a person with no love, no sincerity is seen.
….having a degree is not enough to say that you’ve proven your worth being a student unless you’ve gotten a job with that degree.

Kinda felt like 1% of King Solomon here. ^_^

My first song composition

As promised I will showcase all my first here and I want to start with my first song composition (unfinished!)

November 13, 2002

Bakit ako’y nananaghoy
Kahit ako’y nagtitiwala na SAYO
Dahil sa salit-salit na panlilibak
Ay napipilitan akong tanungin KA

Oh, Panginoon ako’y patawarin MO
Sa ganitong pag-uugali ko
Dahil sa mga hirap ko
Hindi ko na alam kung ano ang gagawin ko

Marapat na ngang ako’y tulungan MO
Naniniwala ako na walang imposible SAYO
At naniniwala ako na hindi MO
Pababayan o iiwanan ang lahat ng naniniwala SAYO

I guess I need to finish it soonest……..^_____^

The start of my writing….

(From Wikipedia) Writing is a medium of human communication that represents language and emotion with signs and symbols. In most languages, writing is a complement to speech or spoken language. Writing is not a language, but a tool developed by human society. Within a language system, writing relies on many of the same structures as speech, such as vocabulary, grammar, and semantics, with the added dependency of a system of signs or symbols. The result of writing is called text, and the recipient of text is called a reader. Motivations for writing include publication, storytelling, correspondence and diary. Writing has been instrumental in keeping history, maintaining culture, dissemination of knowledge through the media and the formation of legal systems.

As human societies emerged, the development of writing was driven by pragmatic exigencies such as exchanging information, maintaining financial accounts, codifying laws and recording history. Around the 4th millennium BCE, the complexity of trade and administration in Mesopotamia outgrew human memory, and writing became a more dependable method of recording and presenting transactions in a permanent form.[1] In both ancient Egypt and Mesoamerica, writing may have evolved through calendrics and a political necessity for recording historical and environmental events.

When did I start writing? What motivates me to write? How does it help me?

I started to write a journal or randoms when I was 10 years old. (I am looking for my old notes and trying to find my first entry but there are too many too little time to look for it, I might one day bumped into it and I’ll post it…promise!)

It was one lazy afternoon, my cousins and siblings were playing on our backyard then the next thing I know I have already composed a story about it (mind-wandering I guess). It felt commending to have a page of your thoughts and to think that it is out of nowhere. It gives a boost or pride on self to have this kind of fulfillment – simple but making an impact. It felt gratifying especially when I am going back to it, re-reading it. It gives me that certain grin and tell myself “I did this?” And those are some of the benefits or good returns of writing to me.

But wait, that’s not the start of it?! I think it started when I got a “Best in Penmanship” accolade from my teacher during my grade school years. She kindly say that the stroke of the letters and the way I did my “a” is very thorough. And then when I showed that note from my teacher to my Aunt, who happen to have a say or voice in everything to the family then, gave me an incentive for a job well done!

So ever since then, I write every thought I have. I compose a song. I compose a poem. I write recipes that I want to try someday. I write the songs that inspires me, quotes that struck me and verses that I want to memorize. I write my heartaches. I write my celebrations and accomplishments. I write about that boyfriend who wronged me or loved me. I write about that horrible person I met. I write about that friend who inspires me and helped me. I write about GOD’s goodness and faithfulness to me. I write about the desire to have intimacy with my Maker. I basically write everything to make me feel calm. I write if I want to “steady my heart”. Pen and paper for me are my 2 most secretive and dependable best friends. These two even know me and my GOD’s secrets.

So yeah…hope you (my readers be inspired to write as well!)

I will be showcasing here as well all my first…..compositions! ^_^

GOD bless……

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21.05.2017 – 12:57pm
Sitting at Tim Hortons. Just finished one (1) meeting and mind-wandering again. Meeting was productive. There’s a possibility of hitting two birds with one stone – potentially get them as client and possible job opportunity. It would be amazing if it happen.

Thinking what to write……………

“To Leave or Not to Leave” that is the question. I have been contemplating, properly weighing and earnestly praying for the possibilities – “What If?”. I haven’t reached the final verdict yet but there is a fat chance that I want to leave. Just today morning while taking a bath, in the comfort of bubbles, I am imagining myself building my property’s walls with steel net. I am:
– Calculating how many hollow blocks needed to put half wall
– How many bags of cement
– I want to elevate a bit the level of the ground, so how many trucks of earth.
– Watch Youtube for security around the property like CCTV, alarm on the gate walls, lights and how to save electricity from doing all these.
– Plant some veggies then hang them on the steel net around the property wall.
– Build hanging cabinets.
– Subscribe the fiber optic landline from PLDT.
– Office at home

All about how to be safe and improve my house. ^___^
All about how I can work in the comfort of my home. ^__^

Haaaaaay…..I wish! This somehow makes me forget what’s the difficulty at hand. It makes me motivated.

Again, thanks Daddy GOD for this! <3<3<3