It’s 1:20am and am still awake. Currently facing one of the greatest testings of life – the unending brawling and bickering with the “partner” on WhatsApp. I am talking with GOD on my mind – figuring, debating, contemplating the possible solutions to this unending drama of my life. Then, this statement, “Claire, I think you are more expressive in your writing than you are speaking (public or in front of audience)” of a friend reminded me to write this blog.
Though, I kinda agree with her but I think I credit it more with how fast ideas, thoughts crawls in my mind. I have a restless wandering mind and bugged with so many information that needed to be remembered and be shared (somehow) to others (if there are who read this!).
(From WIKIPEDIA) Mind-wandering (sometimes referred to as task-unrelated thought) is the experience of thoughts not remaining on a single topic for a long period of time, particularly when people are engaged in an attention-demanding task.
Mind-wandering tends to occur during driving, reading and other activities where vigilance may be low. In these situations, people do not remember what happened in the surrounding environment because they are preoccupied with their thoughts. This is known as the decoupling hypothesis. Studies using event-related potentials (ERPs) have quantified the extent that mind-wandering reduces the cortical processing of the external environment. When thoughts are unrelated to the task at hand, the brain processes both task-relevant and unrelated sensory information in a less detailed manner.
Mind-wandering appears to be a stable trait of people and a transient state. Studies have linked performance problems in the laboratory and in daily life. Mind-wandering has been associated with possible car accidents. Mind-wandering is also intimately linked to states of affect. Studies indicate that task-unrelated thoughts are common in people with low or depressed mood. Mind-wandering also occurs when a person is intoxicated via the consumption of alcohol.
It is common during mind-wandering to engage in mental time travel or the consideration of personally relevant events from the past and the anticipation of events in the future. Poet Joseph Brodsky described it as a “psychological Sahara”, a cognitive desert “that starts right in your bedroom and spurns the horizon”. The hands of the clock seem to stop; the stream of consciousness slows to a drip. We want to be anywhere but here.
Studies have demonstrated a prospective bias to spontaneous thought because individuals tend to engage in more future than past related thoughts during mind-wandering. The default mode network is thought to be involved in mind-wandering and internally directed thought.
There you go…..when I am in this state; I don’t care who listens, I don’t see people looking or steering at me like nothing, I will say whatever I want to say and it’ll make me feel better and back to my solace.
In my thoughts, I have an opinion in/with everything. I can say the words that I want to say which in turn comfort me, appease me and give me a bit of grin on my face.
In my thoughts, I can choke somebody or punch somebody without that person ever feeling it. I remember King David in some of his Psalms which he invoked judgment, calamity, or curses, upon one’s enemies or those perceived as the enemies of God. This is the kind of relationship that he has with his Maker that he can say anything and everything to GOD…..it is his mind-wanderer thingy then birthed it to his writings. *Awesome*
In my thoughts I already built my dream “Safe Haven Cafe” or being a chef, or creating my own sofa, benches and dining table for my house or I am travelling somewhere around Europe (who I’m with doesn’t matter) or won the argument with my “partner” or in a remote place somewhere in Philippines or Africa on a mission.
In my thoughts I am talking to this youth person that’s getting into my nerves and I am telling her why I don’t like how she sits in the santuary or how she talks to momshies or how loud her laugh is.
Putting it in writing on the other hand, I guess gives life to my thoughts so when I get to read it, I will be encouraged or victorious (especially the thought that I won that argument with the “partner” or all ends well. I can say also that writing gives some ease to my current situation. My pen and paper are my confidanté, my friend who only listens….kinda like a “letter to GOD” thingy. There is a certain offloading going on when my thoughts are being penned. It makes my feeling lighter and “okay again” state.
So from my endocardium, I thank GOD for the provisions of blog sites, pen and paper.
P.S. To you who’ll view or read this post, I would like to hear your mind-wandering stories.
GOD bless! ^_^