My first song composition

As promised I will showcase all my first here and I want to start with my first song composition (unfinished!)

November 13, 2002

Bakit ako’y nananaghoy
Kahit ako’y nagtitiwala na SAYO
Dahil sa salit-salit na panlilibak
Ay napipilitan akong tanungin KA

Oh, Panginoon ako’y patawarin MO
Sa ganitong pag-uugali ko
Dahil sa mga hirap ko
Hindi ko na alam kung ano ang gagawin ko

Marapat na ngang ako’y tulungan MO
Naniniwala ako na walang imposible SAYO
At naniniwala ako na hindi MO
Pababayan o iiwanan ang lahat ng naniniwala SAYO

I guess I need to finish it soonest……..^_____^


The start of my writing….

(From Wikipedia) Writing is a medium of human communication that represents language and emotion with signs and symbols. In most languages, writing is a complement to speech or spoken language. Writing is not a language, but a tool developed by human society. Within a language system, writing relies on many of the same structures as speech, such as vocabulary, grammar, and semantics, with the added dependency of a system of signs or symbols. The result of writing is called text, and the recipient of text is called a reader. Motivations for writing include publication, storytelling, correspondence and diary. Writing has been instrumental in keeping history, maintaining culture, dissemination of knowledge through the media and the formation of legal systems.

As human societies emerged, the development of writing was driven by pragmatic exigencies such as exchanging information, maintaining financial accounts, codifying laws and recording history. Around the 4th millennium BCE, the complexity of trade and administration in Mesopotamia outgrew human memory, and writing became a more dependable method of recording and presenting transactions in a permanent form.[1] In both ancient Egypt and Mesoamerica, writing may have evolved through calendrics and a political necessity for recording historical and environmental events.

When did I start writing? What motivates me to write? How does it help me?

I started to write a journal or randoms when I was 10 years old. (I am looking for my old notes and trying to find my first entry but there are too many too little time to look for it, I might one day bumped into it and I’ll post it…promise!)

It was one lazy afternoon, my cousins and siblings were playing on our backyard then the next thing I know I have already composed a story about it (mind-wandering I guess). It felt commending to have a page of your thoughts and to think that it is out of nowhere. It gives a boost or pride on self to have this kind of fulfillment – simple but making an impact. It felt gratifying especially when I am going back to it, re-reading it. It gives me that certain grin and tell myself “I did this?” And those are some of the benefits or good returns of writing to me.

But wait, that’s not the start of it?! I think it started when I got a “Best in Penmanship” accolade from my teacher during my grade school years. She kindly say that the stroke of the letters and the way I did my “a” is very thorough. And then when I showed that note from my teacher to my Aunt, who happen to have a say or voice in everything to the family then, gave me an incentive for a job well done!

So ever since then, I write every thought I have. I compose a song. I compose a poem. I write recipes that I want to try someday. I write the songs that inspires me, quotes that struck me and verses that I want to memorize. I write my heartaches. I write my celebrations and accomplishments. I write about that boyfriend who wronged me or loved me. I write about that horrible person I met. I write about that friend who inspires me and helped me. I write about GOD’s goodness and faithfulness to me. I write about the desire to have intimacy with my Maker. I basically write everything to make me feel calm. I write if I want to “steady my heart”. Pen and paper for me are my 2 most secretive and dependable best friends. These two even know me and my GOD’s secrets.

So yeah…hope you (my readers be inspired to write as well!)

I will be showcasing here as well all my first…..compositions! ^_^

GOD bless……

Random 102

21.05.2017 – 12:57pm
Sitting at Tim Hortons. Just finished one (1) meeting and mind-wandering again. Meeting was productive. There’s a possibility of hitting two birds with one stone – potentially get them as client and possible job opportunity. It would be amazing if it happen.

Thinking what to write……………

“To Leave or Not to Leave” that is the question. I have been contemplating, properly weighing and earnestly praying for the possibilities – “What If?”. I haven’t reached the final verdict yet but there is a fat chance that I want to leave. Just today morning while taking a bath, in the comfort of bubbles, I am imagining myself building my property’s walls with steel net. I am:
– Calculating how many hollow blocks needed to put half wall
– How many bags of cement
– I want to elevate a bit the level of the ground, so how many trucks of earth.
– Watch Youtube for security around the property like CCTV, alarm on the gate walls, lights and how to save electricity from doing all these.
– Plant some veggies then hang them on the steel net around the property wall.
– Build hanging cabinets.
– Subscribe the fiber optic landline from PLDT.
– Office at home

All about how to be safe and improve my house. ^___^
All about how I can work in the comfort of my home. ^__^

Haaaaaay…..I wish! This somehow makes me forget what’s the difficulty at hand. It makes me motivated.

Again, thanks Daddy GOD for this! <3<3<3

Random 101

It’s 1:20am and am still awake.  Currently facing one of the greatest testings of life – the unending brawling and bickering with the “partner” on WhatsApp.  I am talking with GOD on my mind – figuring, debating, contemplating the possible solutions to this unending drama of my life.  Then, this statement, “Claire, I think you are more expressive in your writing than you are speaking (public or in front of audience)” of a friend reminded me to write this blog.

Though, I kinda agree with her but I think I credit it more with how fast ideas, thoughts crawls in my mind. I have a restless wandering mind and bugged with so many information that needed to be remembered and be shared (somehow) to others (if there are who read this!).

(From WIKIPEDIA) Mind-wandering (sometimes referred to as task-unrelated thought) is the experience of thoughts not remaining on a single topic for a long period of time, particularly when people are engaged in an attention-demanding task.

Mind-wandering tends to occur during driving, reading and other activities where vigilance may be low. In these situations, people do not remember what happened in the surrounding environment because they are preoccupied with their thoughts. This is known as the decoupling hypothesis. Studies using event-related potentials (ERPs) have quantified the extent that mind-wandering reduces the cortical processing of the external environment. When thoughts are unrelated to the task at hand, the brain processes both task-relevant and unrelated sensory information in a less detailed manner.

Mind-wandering appears to be a stable trait of people and a transient state. Studies have linked performance problems in the laboratory and in daily life. Mind-wandering has been associated with possible car accidents. Mind-wandering is also intimately linked to states of affect. Studies indicate that task-unrelated thoughts are common in people with low or depressed mood.  Mind-wandering also occurs when a person is intoxicated via the consumption of alcohol.

It is common during mind-wandering to engage in mental time travel or the consideration of personally relevant events from the past and the anticipation of events in the future. Poet Joseph Brodsky described it as a “psychological Sahara”, a cognitive desert “that starts right in your bedroom and spurns the horizon”. The hands of the clock seem to stop; the stream of consciousness slows to a drip. We want to be anywhere but here.

Studies have demonstrated a prospective bias to spontaneous thought because individuals tend to engage in more future than past related thoughts during mind-wandering. The default mode network is thought to be involved in mind-wandering and internally directed thought.

There you go…..when I am in this state; I don’t care who listens, I don’t see people looking or steering at me like nothing, I will say whatever I want to say and it’ll make me feel better and back to my solace.

In my thoughts, I have an opinion in/with everything.  I can say the words that I want to say which in turn comfort me, appease me and give me a bit of grin on my face.

In my thoughts, I can choke somebody or punch somebody without that person ever feeling it.  I remember King David in some of his Psalms which he invoked judgment, calamity, or curses, upon one’s enemies or those perceived as the enemies of God. This is the kind of relationship that he has with his Maker that he can say anything and everything to GOD… is his mind-wanderer thingy then birthed it to his writings.  *Awesome*

In my thoughts I already built my dream “Safe Haven Cafe” or being a chef, or creating my own sofa, benches and dining table for my house or I am travelling somewhere around Europe (who I’m with doesn’t matter) or won the argument with my “partner” or in a remote place somewhere in Philippines or Africa on a mission.

In my thoughts I am talking to this youth person that’s getting into my nerves and I am telling her why I don’t like how she sits in the santuary or how she talks to momshies or how loud her laugh is.

Putting it in writing on the other hand, I guess gives life to my thoughts so when I get to read it, I will be encouraged or victorious (especially the thought that I won that argument with the “partner” or all ends well.  I can say also that writing gives some ease to my current situation.  My pen and paper are my confidanté, my friend who only listens….kinda like a “letter to GOD” thingy.  There is a certain offloading going on when my thoughts are being penned.  It makes my feeling lighter and “okay again” state.

So from my endocardium, I thank GOD for the provisions of blog sites, pen and paper.

P.S. To you who’ll view or read this post, I would like to hear your mind-wandering stories.

GOD bless! ^_^

A Chat with GOD!

The Highest place is at the feet of Jesus!
By: Bubot Parago

God: Hello. Did you call me?
Man: Called you? No.. who is this?
God: This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat with you.
Man: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something..
God: What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.
Man: Don’t know. But I cant find free time. Life has become hectic. It’s rush hour all the time
God: Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.
Man: I understand. But I still can’t figure it out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.
God: Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with.
Man: Tell me, why has life become so complicated now?
God: Analysis is what makes it all complicated. Stop analyzing life. When you analyze, you surmise. But when you believe, you achieve.
Man: why are we then constantly unhappy?
God: Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That’s why you are not happy.
Man: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?
God: For humans, uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.
Man: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty..
God: Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.
Man: If suffering is optional, why do good people suffer?
God: Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don’t suffer. With that experience, their life becomes better not bitter. Also good people see opportunity in every adversity, the opportunity which makes them turn to Me, the God.
Man: You mean to say such experience is useful?
God: Yes. In every terms, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.
Man: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why can’t we be free from problems?
God: Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons to Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.
Man: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don’t know where we are heading…
God: If you look outside, you will not know where you are heading. Look inside, instead. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight..
Man: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction. What should I do?
God: Success is a measure as decided by others.  Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.
Man: In tough times, how to stay motivated?
God: Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.
Man: What surprises you about people?
God: when they suffer they ask, “why me?” When they prosper, they never ask “Why me”. Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.
Man: Sometimes I ask, what life is, why am I here. I can’t get the answer.
God: Before anything is created, the purpose is clearly defined in the mind of the Creator, i.e. Me. If you use your tiny, immature brain to philosophize and speculate what life is etc., it is only going to frustrate you more and more. Instead, use such questions to help you achieve the goal of self-realization.
Man: How can I get the best out of life?
God: Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.
Man: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.
God: There are no unanswered prayers. At times, the answer is NO.  With Me, it is not important who puts you down…it is important that you are with Me because when you are at your lowest? it is YOUR time to be lifted up by My loving Hands. I gave grace to the humble and I opposes the proud. Because pride goes before destruction. I don’t want you to be destroyed…did not My Son told you: “If anyone comes to Me and does not hate his [own] father and mother [[a]in the sense of indifference to or relative disregard for them in comparison with his attitude toward God] and [likewise] his wife and children and brothers and sisters–[yes] and even his own life also–he cannot be My disciple.”
Man: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to start the New Day with a new sense of inspiration.
God: Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don’t believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is not misery but discovery, discovery of true love, real happiness and perfect peace. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live. I AM LIFE!!!

When you’re not appreciated for the job well done (lessons from Mordecai)

This is not my original share but when I read it, I was blessed and so I want someone to read it too and be blessed.

When you’re not appreciated for the job well done!
by Pro-Tips

How would you feel when you are left unnoticed and unappreciated after a job well done? What would you do if someone else gets the credit for work that you painstakingly accomplished?

Refuse to lose heart because you are not alone. Mordecai, the uncle of Queen Esther, had a similar experience. In Esther 2: 21 to 23, this is what we will read, “In those days, while Mordecai was sitting at the king’s gate, Bigthan and Teresh, two of the king’s officials from those who guarded the door, became angry and sought to lay hands on King Xerxes. But the plot became known to Mordecai and he told Queen Esther, and Esther informed the king in Mordecai’s name. Now when the plot was investigated and found to be so, they were both hanged on a gallows; and it was written in the Book of the Chronicles in the king’s presence.”

After Mordecai’s courageous act of saving the king from an assassination plot, did he get a tangible reward from his boss? Well, the incident was recorded in the king’s chronicle. But Mordecai didn’t get a promotion nor did he enjoy a hefty bonus. Not until we reach chapter 6 of the book of Esther. In other words, it was business as usual in the kingdom and Mordecai’s heroism was easily forgotten in the busyness of the day.

Did Mordecai cry, “Unfair! I should have been promoted!” Did Mordecai pack-up and resign? Did he bad-mouth the king for not compensating him accordingly? He did none of these. Instead, he just went on ahead with his normal routine. He continued to work diligently and excellently.

There are three things that we can learn from Mordecai’s story. Three thoughts that we should keep in mind and take to heart when a job well done seems unnoticed.

First, realize that excellent work is a duty and a privilege not a right. To be able to work these days is almost a privilege because we know that thousands of people are losing their jobs as a result of the global financial crisis. When we view work as a privilege, we become thankful instead of complaining, diligent instead of complacent. View work as a right and every time you do your job, you’d feel that you deserve to get something in return. If you don’t get it, you feel disappointed and frustrated.

Several years ago, I attended a tribute given to the Commission on Audit (COA) ladies, whose excellent work led to Meralco refunding all its subscribers the over-payment collected from them through the years. I remember one of the ladies saying that while the expression of appreciation touched her deeply, she feels that it was unnecessary because she was simply doing her job. She knew that her duty was to audit accurately and efficiently. And since she was only doing what was expected of her, she was surprised that she was being rewarded for it. She even asked if excellent service was so rare these days that when we see it, people can’t help but make a big celebration out of it. Excellent work is a duty not a right that demands a reward.

Second, move from external motivation to internal motivation. When we were kids, candies and treats motivate us to behave and follow our parents and teachers. External rewards really did wonders to make us obey. But we are no longer kids. We are now adults who should work excellently not because of the rewards and perks that we can get, but because of our desire to do what’s right. I’m sure that when Mordecai told Queen Esther about Bigthan and Teresh’s plot to assassinate the king, he wasn’t thinking of what’s in it for him. He acted on what his gut-feel was telling him. Something dangerous was about to happen, he must warn the king. Mordecai did what’s right without any strings attached because when he didn’t receive tangible rewards after the plot was revealed, he just went on ahead with life as usual. No complaints, no sour grapes, no backbiting against the king. Be internally motivated. Outgrow the candies and let your conscience drive you to work extra-ordinarily well.

Third, Remember that God takes notice of our good deeds done for His glory. King Xerxes may have forgotten to appreciate Mordecai’s excellent work but God never forgets. Our acts of kindness done for God’s glory will never escape God’s notice. Three chapters after Mordecai’s heroic act to save the king, it was only in Esther chapter 6 that we read about the reward being accorded to him. The king couldn’t sleep that night and so he ordered that his chronicles be read to him. Of all the things documented in the king’s chronicle, was it coincidence that Mordecai’s act was the one that caught the king’s attention? This was no coincidence, this is God’s hand at work. At the right time, at the moment that will best serve the purpose of God, Mordecai was noticed and he was rewarded.

Your excellent performance at work may not be noticed or applauded by your boss and colleagues right now but remember this, God takes notice of your diligence and hard work. Ephesians 6:7 says “Do your work cheerfully, as though you served the Lord, and not merely human beings.”


“Frown and you frown alone, but smile and the whole world smiles with you.” The whole world? Not just any smile will do, though. Here’s how to develop a genuine, infectious smile that can make a bad date turn good, seal a business deal, and help you make friends wherever you go.

1. Practice good hygiene. If you’ve got bits of food stuck in your teeth, people may indeed say you have an infectious smile, but they might be talking about actual infections. It should go without saying, but regularly brushing your teeth and making sure your breath is fresh are some prerequisites to a good smile. If your teeth are stained, visit the dentist for a polishing or use a whitening product, and take care of your lips to prevent chapping. When you smile people will inevitably look at your mouth, so following these considerations will help you make a better impression, and, more importantly, a healthy mouth will make you feel more confident about smiling.

2. Get comfortable with smiling. Many people are a little nervous about smiling. They don’t think their smile looks good, or they think that smiling makes them look unprofessional or vulnerable. It’s true that a smile does show a little vulnerability, but that’s part of what makes it so powerful. No matter how professional, intelligent, or in control you think a serious face (or worse, a frown) makes you appear, people almost always respond better to a smile.

3. Think happy thoughts. The easiest way to a great smile is to be happy. You can be happy all the time, but not everybody is; when you are not, you can think happy thoughts instead. Think about something or someone that you care about, or think about a joke that you just find hilarious. Remarkably, when you’re feeling down, smiling can help cheer you up, even if you have to coax a smile out at first.

4. Smile with your eyes. When we think of smiling, we think of the mouth, but the eyes may actually be more essential to a warm, genuine smile. Smiling with your eyes is difficult to describe–in general your cheekbones lift slightly and your eyebrows dip a little–but when you see it, you know it: it’s that look of your eyes “lighting up” or “twinkling.” To get a feel for how to make your eyes smile, get in front of a mirror and practice smiling, but concentrate only on your eyes. You may find it helpful to cover the lower part of your face with a piece of paper. Play around with it a bit, and you’ll find that you can make your mouth smile when your eyes aren’t smiling, and you can also smile only with your eyes. When your eyes do smile, remember how it feels, which muscles are working and how. With practice, you’ll be able to smile with your eyes at will.

5. Develop your smile. Don’t particularly care for your smile? It’s a common complaint, and while it’s true that any smile is better than a frown, it’s also true that some smiles look better than others. What’s your best smile? One way to find out is to look through pictures of yourself. Many people who consider themselves unphotogenic are plagued by bad smiles in front of the camera, but just about everybody has at least one picture in which they just look great, with a perfectly natural, contagious smile. Find that picture and focus on what your face is doing. Then practice in front of a mirror until you get it just right. Keep practicing, and pay attention to how that great smile feels, so that you’ll be able to replicate it without looking in a mirror. Soon it will become second nature, and you’ll likely find that you’ll look more photogenic in your next batch of pictures.

6. If you want to improve your smile, look at pictures of smiles that you believe are beautiful. Also, think good thoughts and remember that you are beautiful (inside and out). Your smile is bound to look better if you feel good about yourself!